i need to say something and get it off my chest im having this really hard time with what it all really means.  Just every thing. I understand that I as a christian need to worship God with all that i do but is there some thing else to life bc i see all these happy people in life and i get pissed because they are happy and im hurting.  Am i doing it wrong because im happy at church when im doing that kind of stuff but out side of that i feel dead to the world and alone almost all of the time.  im sorry if im being all emo and stuff for the 5 maybe 6 of you that will see this and the 2 of you that will read it but i just need help.  Im having a really hard time for real with this it sucks because it didnt use to be this way.  i used to love life all of it not just the church part and its not that im not doing church out side of church  because i am but i dont know what it is i just feel like something is totally wrong.  so please some one help me i need help i casting my pride aside to try to grow stronger as a christian as a person  and as a man.  i dont know if you can put comments on this but if you are going to say something to help either just talk to me or send me a message on facebook