i need to say something and get it off my chest im having this really hard time with what it all really means. Just every thing. I understand that I as a christian need to worship God with all that i do but is there some thing else to life bc i see all these happy people in life and i get pissed because they are happy and im hurting. Am i doing it wrong because im happy at church when im doing that kind of stuff but out side of that i feel dead to the world and alone almost all of the time. im sorry if im being all emo and stuff for the 5 maybe 6 of you that will see this and the 2 of you that will read it but i just need help. Im having a really hard time for real with this it sucks because it didnt use to be this way. i used to love life all of it not just the church part and its not that im not doing church out side of church because i am but i dont know what it is i just feel like something is totally wrong. so please some one help me i need help i casting my pride aside to try to grow stronger as a christian as a person and as a man. i dont know if you can put comments on this but if you are going to say something to help either just talk to me or send me a message on facebook
i want to do a life story kind of thing right now on blog but i choose not to bc im lazy i guess and i wanted to at first bc Sandi did and i could not let her out blog me but then i thought why do i care its just a blog so i guess i wont but i guess i could put a pic
i love this pic its awesome
http://brilliantyetblonde.blogspot.com/
this makes me happy
So as yall know im at college and im a very out going person so i have no problem making friends or at having my name know all around campus. So that can be an awesome thing or a really bad thing, let me explain. The good thing is that people know who i am and i like that bc that means im a popular person and that also means that when i need help i got lots of people willing to help. Now this can be a bad thing bc 1) I could let this get in the way of my studies or 2) It could mean people will want me to do things with them like got to parties that i should not go to and do other stupid stuff and thats a no no. Something else good is that people trust me and come to me for help on every thing and thats helps me to get to know them and what they are going through and if i help them enough then they will tell people and in this small one horse town its all about who you know and ive already met the owner of some the local stores and made friends them like a couple mom and pop places and also the ace hard where down rode so im already a big shot in this town and all bc im friendly and inviting (and i guess i have a sign around my neck that says “Tell me about your problems and other stuff in your life” and i kind of dont mind). So this past weak has been pretty awesome because i have got to know lots of awesome people, and some not so awesome, umm i dont know what else to say other then id like to say that i got kicked out of English on Monday for not having my books and then on Tuesday my mom and dad(and callie) came down and we got books and spend $240. I HATE BOOKS!!! other then that i got nothing else to say
God bless (I HATE BOOKS) and have a good rest of the weak
Levi Dawson
So can anybody guess what I did yesterday? I did nothing not a thing and it was cool for like the first 30 min. So at like 10 (yup for those counting that is correct i did not wake up till 930ish) I was like i need to do something so i got out of bed went down the said then came back to my bed at like 1005ish. After that i did nothing. So that went on for like 8 hours till my wounderful girl friend call and that for whatever reason made me want walk around so i did and got lost in this hick town. Very nice place tho but anyway so about 2 hours went by and i found my way back to the school and came back to my doorm and i thought i was going to do nothing well i was wrong. Me and this guy whos name i cant rember walked around till like 11ish then came back to his doorm and aet lots of food bc they were cooking in their doorm with a George Forman so i stayed there till like 1 bad idea class at 8 not good. well did not fall asleep till like 4 and now im awake by some crazyniss of God so yall having fun so far and now i need food so yah.
have fun and be safe and God bless
Levi Dawson
Yup i religon teacher looks amish so it makes it really to focaus in his class. I have only had one religon class so far but come on there is no way that what ever he says will have any effect on me or i prob wont rember anything he tells me but i will try. But all my other classes are pirty lame they are just like high school. so this semester will be easy but thats all i have to say
by yall God bless
Levi Dawson